being deceived again~

well.... today.... May 18th....

hmmmm .... wonder what am i suppose to do today..

 oh ya, i was suppose to go out. 

but then i wanted to see someone so much 

till i wasn't in the mood at all.

hmm... i called him in the morning thinking that he might want to go out.

well yeah, a thought is always a thought.

he said its fine with him to meet up at taman jaya.

so i offered to meet up with him and come over to my place for cc.

then, i took the bus to taman jaya.

 and guess what, he called to tell me not to take the bus. 

he asked me to go home and wait. 

so yeah, did as he said

was on the way home, he called and said not coming...

well, disappointed and sad, i just said bye. 

 that was all in my mind.

i was too naive to believe him

probably i have not been seeing him for ages till i eventually took time to go all the way to taman jaya.

i miss him but i was let down miserably.

and guess what, its raining. worst... he wont even come. 

heart torn even more. 

but i dont even know what am i feeling anymore.

im speechless and yea , too naive to trust people.

we have not been talking. probably somehow in me, i just want to see him and talk.

yea... hopes are just hopes. somehow it will be let down. =(