Insecure~

time to write again! 

well, i have this funny feeling around. 

i do not know it's about me or not

 or probably i should think that not everything is about me

things i see or even hear could actually relate to me

so how am i not to think about it? 

there is another thing...

should friends will always be only two?

I personally do not understand the concept of friendship anymore

i do not know why i said so, but it seems i really don't

i just want to share my happiness with you all. 

but instead i got another kind of a response. 

why? why??

i don't mean to show off to anyone

i just want you all to be happy for me

does this mean i should just keep quiet and not tell anything around?

if that is so, then i'll do it.

 if that makes you all feel better.

i don't mean to offend anybody

yes, i kept saying that my parents don't love me 

but i mean that they kept on scolding me for these and that reasons

making me stressed up and comparing to other parents

i don't mean that they hate me

please think about that . 

well, although my parents can afford expensive things,

that doesnt mean they are rich or even i'm rich.  

i want to be the same level as everyone

that is what we call as God's children.

i treat everyone as my friend

college mates are my besties

whether they treat me right or not, i do not know

you don't have to know

if you don't like anything about me then just tell me off..

 don't make me keep wondering around

i don't need you to tell me what to do or to keep my mouth shut.

 i know where i stand.

 just stay out. 

I am who I am.